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the ignorance of some people these days!They make a whole day to smoking weed and other drugs.They smoke weed every day any ways,so why does it matter on this day?!To me this is so stupid,i have nothing against smoking weed cause i do so myself,but a day for weed?!??!?! so damn stupid!!!just smoke your weed like every other day and shut up already!
WARNING: EXTREEEEMELY LONG - as you can see
Ok, well the SIMPLE version of this is: My "best friend" copies me and I never get the things I want&people who don't even want those things get them for the sake of having stuff. GAH!! But it's a lot more complicated than that "/
Ok so I'm gonna start off with the not getting what I want thing - So there's this girl, Lauren, in my class and she's like FILTHY rich. She gets EVERYTHING, concert tickets to bands she doesn't even like (exactly, that's what I meant by things I want that other people get), clothes she never wears, shoes that she'll never be able to walk in, makeup she just throws away, EVERYTHING!! It's really unfair but it's not like her parents just get her stuff, ohhhh no, she ASKS for it than throws it away like it's crap, she ASKED for Tokio Hotel concert tickets (they're my 2nd favorite band <3) she HATES them, she just wanted yet another reason to bring my mood down. She rubbed those tickets in my face, the concert's over in Paris, I'm not allowed to go without my parents - I'm 13 ffs!! She's 12 so I really just don't get how her parents could be so irresponsible to let a 12 year old go to France on her own. Euch. I love that band so much, how comes I can never get backstage passes or even concert tickets? :'[
And the friend who copies me thing - So there's this other girl, Rianne, and we're really close and stuff but she's really kinda annoying, I didn't get chips with her so she stopped talking to me, she wasn't invited to someone elses party, so she stopped talking to me, everything I like, she suddenly likes. Again with the Tokio Hotel thing, she'd never even HEARD of those AH-MAY-ZINGG sex gods before I mentioned them and she goes "OH MY GOSH I LOVE THEM!!" so I get happy coz at least SOMEONE else in my school likes them so I ask her what her favorite song is by them and she's like "oh....I like all of them" people only do that when they don't actually KNOW, and she's a crappy liar so it's obvious, she's trying to impress me coz she's having trouble making friends, she can see I'm getting closer to a girl called Darshy, and I'm hanging out even MORE with my best friend Tara, and Rahma (who is her best friend) and I have a few secrets, it's just coz she's so annoying!! She acts like she knows everything we know just coz she doesn't wanna be left out. I feel sorry for her but it's really bugging me and I don't know how to tell her that it's ok if she doesn't know something that I like, and that I wont judge her, but I'm scared, coz she's actually such a nice person, but she gets upset&jealous really easily "/
Ahh h I'm so damn confused, I lost my 2 bestfriends...that is if I can call them bestfriends to begin with. I never felt they were there for me, I never felt their support while I've gone through shit just so I can be there for them. Anyway one of them got mad at me cuz i dont call as much as i used to, i dunno y i dont but it's just how it is, cuz i have a love/hate relationship with phones atm. I told her if she wants to talk to me we can meet up or something all she gotta do is let me know when and where (she didnt). Then when i called to check up on her she called me two faced for saying that I care without calling her all the time. that didnt really matter to me cuz it's her opinion right? Anyhow I apologized then gave her a choice either to try and compromise or to just forget about me and I told her to let me know what she chooses before I travel. She didnt so I figured that ment she wants nothin to do with me. At the same time i was chatting with my other bestfriend who is with me in college but ignores me and stays with other people, which wasnt enough to get me mad but apparently she didnt like the fact that i wasnt spending time with her, which I was. Anyhow I was trying to tell her something and make sure that she doesnt backstab me cuz i can't take that anymore she takes things the wrong way gets mad at me doesnt let me explain my point then starts cussin, i got mad so i didnt bother explaining myself to her and tried to act cool then she pissed me off real bad and went over the border so I called her a "F***ing Bitch" which I regret. She said she doesnt want anything to do with me then went all dramatic and was like "goodbye forever" so i replied "lol byee, have a good life". After that I travelled for a week then when I came back I got both of them a necklace with their names on it and wrote a letter where I apologized for calling one of them a fucking bitch, then told them that the gift is a token of our 4 years (or more) of friendship.
Man it feels good letting all that crap out, yet the whole thing seems childish....
Let me start out by saying that I was blessed to have you in my life. We dated for a while, even after I shared my entire freaky cancer survivor story. Yes, I survived it - a rare form that really did a number on me. Never was I given anything close to a terminal prognosis, but it still shook me.
You didn't run away, and you were awesome, at first.
But by month 8, I let you know that I had cancer follow-up appointments coming up, and said I was a little worried, but not freaked out about. Just know, these are the very words you said: 'I can't help you,' and 'how many more of these follow-up appointments do you have?' Then, you just walked away. To answer your question about how many more...even being cured, it's for the rest of my life. It's cancer. That's just the way it is. It doesn't matter if I had it 20 or 2 years ago. How would you have reacted if it ever did come back?
Why I didn't just leave you after that, which I thought about at least a few times a week, I guess it's just never only been about me. Your lack of compassion, anger, constantly asking if I was cheating or looking for someone else...all were big red flags. You accused me of flirting, even reading too much into friendly exchanges. You even came by one night, looking for me, when I'd clearly let know I was working out, and would call when back home. When you came by, I knew something was very wrong, possibly an emergency. Then you asked if I was seeing someone else. ???
But you hated your job, had money problems, and I was afraid you were severely depressed, possibly heading in a downward spiral. You even said at one point,'I feel like I'm being pulled in ten different directions, no time for myself!'
Well, you were laid off, so that's out of the picture. Still got the condo? Probably, but how's it going? My hunch is that you're in a new 'relationship.' Sometimes you can pick up on certain networking site details without trying to. And, by the way, it was weird to be asked if you could send me a friend request, since you mentioned you weren't sure where you'd be after the lay-off, and asked for advice. I never received the request. Cool.
You're basically a good person, and wish you well. But just know the things you said to a cool guy who kicked cancer's ass...that's embarrasing!
Take care, lady.
Since my sister agreed to let me use her card to shop online as my mother would never let me have my debit card and shop with it, I mean come on - I'm 13 and naive, go figure - I used it to buy a bunch of stuff without telling her today.
She's probably gonna find out and I WILL pay her back but she'll probably get to mum before I get the chance to explain and I'll be grounded - AGAIN.
I've been grounded all week for the first time in 3 years, it SUCKED, I do not need that happening again. FML!!
Okay, so i broke up with my boyfriend of 6 months at the end of the summer. Now that we are back at school and I see him again, it's like it was before we started dating. Sometimes I feel like I like him but there is also this other guy that I kind of like. ( Both of these guys are complete losers) But neither of them really notice me anymore. Well at least I don't think they do. What do I know? And not only that but at my friends party we were swimming near the road and these guys (that i didn't know) whistled and yelled at me when I was standing out of the pool dripping wet. and another time after that a different car of guys drove by me yelling! It made me feel pretty good about myself cause usually I feel really fat. andd on top of all of my confusion about none of the guys liking me im getting piles of homework every freaking night! So i have no time to think about all of this, i get hardly any sleep at night and I keep breaking out because of all the stress im under. And one of my friends is really a bitch and wouldn't support me when i was excepted into the honor band because she wasn't! And most of my friends are all over the guys and they don't pay atttention to me. all of my teacheers love me but wat does beign a nerd help when you're secretly miserable?
Erik Taylor is a Rapist. He should be locked up forever. He is just plain evil. I hate him
to this chick that i like i am unnoticeable. and today i think she was crying and i couldn't do anything about it. i seem to be the only person at school who doesn't know her that well... :'( this is not fun....
My bestfriend since i was 4 or 5 has found a "new" bestfriend it F*uckin gets on my nerves she acts like she doesnt even care she spends more time with her "new" bestfriend then me. I havent told her because she cant see what she is doing and will deny it. She met the girl this year in school! It f**kin sucks i want my friend back but not tare there relationship apart! >:|
so basically i have this new boyfriend and he's four years older than me. well my mom won't let me go see him and it really sucks because if i go to the store or something she thinks i'm with him. and i really like him and he's an amazing guy but i've recently been put in a position where i have to come across this guy who i've liked for years. and he tells me about this girl he likes and i just sit back and listen. and i like my boyfriend ALOT. he's really great and he's been on my mind almost all the time. but it sucks having the one you're really into be dangled in front of you. and on top of that, to be able to see my boyfriend i have to take another female with me to his apartment. well i cant take any of my best friends because one would rather secretly fool around with her girlfriend in the locker room, and the other two would rather go to their boyfriends house and fool around. :[ i wanna move out. and i think i will, to my dad's but now, i just have to actually converse with my dad....