IM SOOOO STOOPID!

sounds something a little like my life but instead of two its three :/ it sucks because you like/love them all you cant choose my choice for me in my head is stay with your gf but everything else is saying go with the other two. But even then what will i do sure i will see one of them everyday but id walk all the way from Ontario (where i live) to California (where the girl lives) im finding it sad that im falling in love with all 3 of them but the one that im not dating is the one that i keep seeing shes the one i'll see everyday because she is getting transferred to my school but my gf cant see me everyday cuz she hasnt told her parents about us yet and i know that sounds bad but when your parents hate you and never want anything to do about you and they get mad easily you try telling them you met your boyfriend online >.< not as easy as most people would think but this is getting confusing for me cuz i love my gf and my best friend and my best friend who ive never met in person in california. but i feel like a horrible bf cuz ive kissed my best friend we almost had sex but i regained control of myself which was hard for me to do considering im a sex addict but it still makes me feel like a horrible bf cuz i am having thought of leaving her for one of these two :(