I guess that's it....
Ahh h I'm so damn confused, I lost my 2 bestfriends...that is if I can call them bestfriends to begin with. I never felt they were there for me, I never felt their support while I've gone through shit just so I can be there for them. Anyway one of them got mad at me cuz i dont call as much as i used to, i dunno y i dont but it's just how it is, cuz i have a love/hate relationship with phones atm. I told her if she wants to talk to me we can meet up or something all she gotta do is let me know when and where (she didnt). Then when i called to check up on her she called me two faced for saying that I care without calling her all the time. that didnt really matter to me cuz it's her opinion right? Anyhow I apologized then gave her a choice either to try and compromise or to just forget about me and I told her to let me know what she chooses before I travel. She didnt so I figured that ment she wants nothin to do with me. At the same time i was chatting with my other bestfriend who is with me in college but ignores me and stays with other people, which wasnt enough to get me mad but apparently she didnt like the fact that i wasnt spending time with her, which I was. Anyhow I was trying to tell her something and make sure that she doesnt backstab me cuz i can't take that anymore she takes things the wrong way gets mad at me doesnt let me explain my point then starts cussin, i got mad so i didnt bother explaining myself to her and tried to act cool then she pissed me off real bad and went over the border so I called her a "F***ing Bitch" which I regret. She said she doesnt want anything to do with me then went all dramatic and was like "goodbye forever" so i replied "lol byee, have a good life". After that I travelled for a week then when I came back I got both of them a necklace with their names on it and wrote a letter where I apologized for calling one of them a f***ing bitch, then told them that the gift is a token of our 4 years (or more) of friendship.
Man it feels good letting all that crap out, yet the whole thing seems childish....